a new decade...

It's the eve of my 30th birthday and I don't know how to feel tonight.  Part of me feels like crying, another part is rejoicing for the time I've been alive.

What does turning 30 really mean?  I suppose I feel like I have to act like more of a grown-up now.  Get serious about the direction my life is heading.  I'm slightly terrified and a little depressed.  On one hand I'm happy I'm far away from home so no one is here to rub it in my face and remind me I'm now three decades old...on the other hand, it's such a big moment in my life and I'm sad I can't spend it with my family and closest friends.

To make myself feel better, I decided to compile a list of  reasons why it's good to be turning 30.

1.  I have lived for three decades.  Some people never get the chance.

2.  Even though I'm turning 30, I still do not look 30.  I'm hoping when people find out my real age they'll be shocked.

3. I'm single without any children.  For some people this might be horrifying but for me I'm happy that I'm at an age where I'm starting to figure out what I want and I don't have anything to tie me down.  No offense to those in relationships or with children.

4.  Hopefully now that I'm turning 30, people stop looking at me like I'm a child.  

5.  My twenties taught me a lot and I still have much to learn.  I'm looking forward to the insight the next decade will bring.


Now excuse me while I go apply some wrinkle cream...:(